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Saturday, December 31, 2005
i hope all the food was good. as always.
its been a year already and it still feels like i just started form 5. everything is sorta over on this chapter of my life and a new one is about to start soon enough. i hope to start it well so that it will end well. im gonna miss this year. i've experienced and achieved a lot and i have to thank many ppl for that.
HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE! may it be a better one this time.
i dont think i have new years resolutions. ill try and be a better person and all that but i dont have specific ones. i could have a new years resolution of not having new years resolution. okay that's just bull. alrighty then... have a good new years eve party and i hope we will be seeing each other soon enough.
actually i have nothing to say because my last few days haven't really been that eventful and im quite tired now but i wanted to do a last post before 2006 so that was it.
oh and ive been accepted into taylors college sydney.
thank god.
REJOICE!
- 2:33 AM
Tuesday, December 27, 2005
i am no longer going to KDU College. it will be Taylors College Sydney, Australia.
i applied to the college through IDP Australia this afternoon and hopefully i'll get accepted. it came as quite a shock actually because my mom rang me up a few days ago at around 10am and told me i can go and study in sydney.
i didn't actually know what to feel. i wasn't as excited as i was a few weeks before because i've blocked out the sydney idea and concentrated on the good sides of going to KDU such as getting a car and what not. however, i think i'm finally getting over that and I REALLY AM EXCITED.
i am quite scared and excited about this whole thing. those 2 emotions can make you not sleep through the night thinking of what will happen when im there. i will prolly have a few weeks of culture shock and then i hope ill get used to the situation.
i wonder how studying in Sydney, Australia will be. wish me luck though. i hope i'll get through smoothly without and DISTURBANCE.
ill update more on this agenda soon enough.
there will be a lot of paperwork if i get accepted. i have to open a bank account there. do a visa. do a medical. find accomodation and all that jazz.
righty.
till then.
- 8:09 PM
Monday, December 26, 2005
i have something to say but i'll only say after its confirmed. i dont wanna go round mentioning this if it isn't confirmed. be patient. i'll tell soon.
:D
- 2:38 AM
Saturday, December 24, 2005
he promises to be around for 6 or 7 more years. i'll take him up on that.
oh! the best part were the presents. he got so much presents! the cool thing was that he received stuff from Gucci, Salvatore Ferragamo, Guy Laroche, Versace, Dunhill, Armani, Moschino and all those high fashion line. my mom gave him this small Dunhill Man Purse. haha. yeah.. Man Purse. i hope he uses it because for that small bag it was about RM1000.
me and my cousins bought a Hagen Dags ice cream Cake for him yesterday. it was nice and im glad he liked it. im so beat from today's party so i think ill go have dinner and then go to bed.
oh YAY! tomorrow's Christmas! to those who celebrate Christmas.. Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!!
im looking forward to 2006. i hope its looking forward to me.
ta.
- 9:25 PM
Wednesday, December 21, 2005
rieni called and said she and fiza are gonna pick me up to go out and so i got ready and waited for them. i was quite excited because fiza JUST got her new car yesterday! very very cool.
its a lime green proton savvy. its a really good car. its not too small and its not too big and so it will be easy to park!
i might get the same car also. prolly black or red. i want black... but red seems nice too. okay fiza when we go college next wear same polo shirt and drive same car eh? haha. and THEN, when we get our suzuki swifts, we can cruise with awal and kaer. right. as if. nvm lah... savvy also can right? they look kinda the same. lime green, black, blue, red. good commbination.
well we went to The Curve is Damansara. its a new shooping mall. quite quiet but plenty of shops. the spaghetti bolognese at the food court kinda sucks though. its drenched in oil. before that rieni went and bought something and we stole these 2 pins from the shop. mmhmm.
after that we sent rieni home and then went to fiza's grandparents house to get some stuff and then went to her apartment to drop those things off and then finally she sent me home. quite a long day but its better than staying at home and rotting.
tomorrow ill be having an early lunch and on friday gonna go blastoff! with Fiza, Fred and Shamin. any excuse to have fun i say.
oh my grandma offered to pay for my college clothes and shoes and stuff. so i asked.. "what's the budget?" and she said.. "no budget. just buy". HURRAH. i finally dont have a budget. but i wont spend too much because its my grandma's money. i hope.
i've to start sleeping early and waking up early. my sleeping routine is ridiculous.
till then.
- 7:44 PM
Tuesday, December 20, 2005
where should i run away to? how do i survive? or do i just deal with the crap and make it bug me forever. i would probably come back after a few years after i get settled.
the thought is tantalising and im still contemplating. running away seems fun but i'll suffer but hey! i dont mind. at least i get to suffer from hardship. and that is a very good lesson.
i hope i change my mind. and i know what will. it depends on ONE person. and one person only. i hope he/she will come through.
you dont understand. you say you do but you dont.
i dont belong and you emphasize on that everytime.
i get angry everytime we end a conversation but i dont say anything because...
just because.
- 6:39 PM
Monday, December 19, 2005
holidays have been quite shitty. i dont miss going to school because i dont like school. however, i look forward to college. i went to KDU last saturday to get some of my queries answered and so ive decided that it is the college for me. im taking this Pre - U course that is moderated by the University of New South Wales. i dont mind it at all because college life seems fun - till i change my mind after 3 months. we will see.
im taking 6 subjects plus 2 more which aren't so relevant to my course. the 6 are Academic English, Computing, Econs, Maths, Intro to Accounting and Legal Studies. the other 2 are Islamic and Malaysian Studies. i dont know why we have to learn Islamic and Malaysian Studies when we've done that in high school. ill learn to embrace it rather than despise it so that i can cope. hopefully.
so after 10 months of Pre - U i hope to go to Sydney/Perth to further my studies. i want the University of Sydney. we'll see. they need about 7.8 GPA.
im getting a car! hurrah! ive always wanted my own car, now i can drive whenever and wherever i want without anyone stopping me. i want a laptop and a raise in allowance too. and i need new things to wear for college.
so the plan for this week is to apply to KDU before friday. probably wednesday, thursday or friday. depending on the circumstances. college starts on 3rd January btw which is about 2 weeks.
thursday night's agenda will probably be clubbing or sth. i HOPE. i just found out that Muslims aren't allowed to go clubbing. wtf. thats bullshit. and friday will be a day of buying things for college and at night will be the blastoff! competition. looking forward to it. and on saturday afternoon is my granddad's 70th birthday party! gotta get him a present.
ill update again when i have the time.
oh and 2 cds i wanna get are by these bands :
- Hot Hot Heat.
- Panic! At the Disco.
till then.
- 8:47 PM
Sunday, December 11, 2005
on the afternoon of last saturday, i attended ashley's party and it was a lot of fun! thanks ash for inviting me and i now hate tomato juice. =)
after the party i headed home. i was really bored out of my guts. i didnt know WHAT to do. there was NOTHING to do. NOONE to talk to. NOTHING to read. it was really really boring.
so at around 11pm, i called shamin and then she asked me to go clubbing with her. and i was like.." HELL YEAH!!". so i got dressed in a nice zara shirt, jeans and leather shoes. mmhmm. i have to dress like that to pass for a 20-something. so then i asked my grand's and they were like "HUH? ITS LATE LAA." but after much persuading i could go. well because i told her i was going to a mamak stall only. and i had to cover my shirt with a big sweater. lol.
then i got in shamin's car and fiza was there too and we had to go to fiza's house to so that they could change and stuff. well while they were chaning i had to stay outside because the father might think something else. heh. well Sazzy was nice. lol. i like their names.. Sazzy and Fiza Falak. mmhmm. yep. oh btw, sazzy is the actress in gol dan gincu, beat tv's host and mtv's juice girl. YES NIZ I TOLD HER YOU LOVED HER IN THE MOVIE. well not her la.. her sister. but close enough. (:
oh and shamin nearly hit a car when we were driving.
then we went to "Sugar". this club was quite small and it was packed with ppl. the good thing is.. I DIDNT HAVE TO PAY FOR THE ENTRANCE. coz Sazzy was like... yeah im on the VIP list and these are all my friends. and so we got chopped at the hand and we were allowed in. the music was so-so la but im not complaining because it was free except for the RM12 coke that i had to pay. no wonder these clubs make money. we saw Yasmin Hani from Music@Ria. she's so tiny and petite. and then we danced and drank. IM PROUD BECAUSE I DIDNT SMOKE OR DRANK ANY ALCOHOLIC BEVERAGES. (:
we danced and danced and we met Fareez. long time no see and it was really good seeing him again and we talked for a bit but not much because the music was too loud. and then we saw Kaer from AF. i was like.. "eh! eh! that's Kaer". well Fiza knew Kaer because her sister is his best friend. i was introduced to him and then i was dancing next to yasmin hani, kaer and all those celebs which was very cool. for me but if its not for you then too bad.
at about 3 am, Sazzy suddenly came to us and said "Ok there is a raid so we've got to get out NOW" yeah so we went out and headed to another club!. when we went out... i couldnt even hear myself because the music was too loud.
this time it was *****.i cant say the name because its confidential or something like that. it was still a small club but i think small clubs are btter than big ones. like Zouk is filled with rempits and all those kampung ppl.
Sazzy and her friends went in first and then we had to stay outside because of some problem. and then Fareez came with his friends and we asked if he could get us in and he saidsure but in a while because he has to talk with the manager. so we waited but before Fareez could get us in.. Kaer came out from the club and went.. okay you 3.. lets go. i was really surprised and shocked becaued he took out RM200 out of his OWN pocket to pay for the entrance fee and a glass of coke for each of us. i mean, what kinda celebrity would pay for the ppl he just met and it wasnt a small amount. and then i shook his hands again and said " hey thanks man i really appreciate it" and he's like.. "no problem.. my pleasure" or somewhere along those lines.
we went in and then danced a bit and had coke. well the club was kinda filled with GAYS. so i was like.. eh are we in the right club? but yeah we were. they were touching and grabbing and kissing and so we danced away from them. i saw ning baizura, joe flizzow from too phat and some other celebs. it was super cool la. i think lesbians are super hot and sexy. the way they dance with each other is....... (:
then afterwards.. Kaer introduced us to his cousin and then he danced with us and stuff. we talked to him and i told him about the PJ branch being sold and all that. he asked if i finished SPM and all that and i said yeah and i forgot what else we talked about. what was funny was in the middle of the club, Kaer suddenly sang the school's song. haha.
oh and then Sazzy said.. "hey lets go to the VIP room!" WELL HELL YEAH SURE LETS GO.
that room was the best one ever. it was like a lot of celebs were int here and i was dancing next to them and stuff. fareez was there too and we took pictures and etc etc. we danced and drank and all that. it was already 5 so we went home. i thanked Sazzy and her friends for ther night because without them and fiza and shamin.. it wouldnt have happened. that morning really rocked.
when i reached home, i had to close the gate VERY quietly and unlock and lock the door VERY quietly also. haha! but i managed and then crept up in bed. woohoo. i know not many ppl are gonna read untill here but i applaud for those who made it! heheh. okay i want to go and have a showr now. till then! bye.
- 6:09 PM
Tuesday, December 06, 2005
fatz!
- 5:19 PM
Saturday, December 03, 2005
it feels so good to wake up late in the morning and not having any guilt that makes you want to study and study and study.
well i was woken up by nabz. she called me to ask how my night was and all that and then i finally got out of bed at 12.
had lunch while my grandmother was planning my granddad's surprise birthday party. weee. i like surprise parties. read the newspaper at my own leasure and not at some fast speed and then watched tv! i forgot what was on.. probably mtv.
then sarah called at 2 something. "eh israk.. can you send me to klcc?" so i was like.. uh. my grandma need to use the car and bla bla but i went to klcc with her anyway afterwards. had some drinks at mydina with naz and sarah.
after that went to meet my real dad's family at madam kwan's. it was really awkward and they really seemed like strangers. no matter how hard i tried to "feel" it, i just cant make myself. i dont have any feeling towards my father, stepmom, brothers and sisters. no feeling at all. zilch. so lunch was awakward and after that we headed to chinoz.
at chinoz he introduced me to his friend and my uncle. i think im so sick of the phrase "OMG YOU'RE SO TALL AND ALL GROWN UP NOW." they must've repeated that sentence over 50 times. well yeah, that's what 17 years of living does to you.
i spoke to my granddad and grandma for the first time. they were really happy to hear from me.. i think. well they sounded like that. my dad likes to talk abt his businesses and it bores me to death. he'll go on and on and on abt it with his friend and i just sit there with a stoned face.
my stepmom is really nice though. she's wanted to meet me since forever and my brothers and sister also know i existed. i didnt know any of them existed before this. as i said earlier on, i still CANNOT accept them as family no matter what. i belive in time to come i might but its really hard now. i really dont feel anything.
it was abt 7 when we were done and bid farewell. ill prolly meet him again because im applying for a scholarship and hes the one with connections. he had to fly to singapore for business but will be back by tonight. fun life though. fly here and there doing business.
what he said was good though. it wasnt exactly like this but along these lines.
"i know i havent been there in the past but that was in the past and im going to help you."
so quite okay! since i know have something to fall on after uni instead of having this ambiguous future. bad thing is i have to come back to malaysia. hehe. kidding.
i think his bodyguard is funny. he tries to talk to me but i cant really make out what he's saying because he's from pahang or something like that. i dont know why he needs a bodyguard anyway.
its been an eventful couple of days. i hope there will be more to come!
- 10:38 PM
i went out with my uncle for dinner at some place called alexis. it had live music so it was good.
the food was great also.
and after 17 years, i finally met my real dad.
interesting.
- 2:48 AM
Thursday, December 01, 2005
yes you guessed it. the exams are over. done. finito.
so its a time to start a new life. HOPEFULLY IN AUSTRALIA.
even though the exams are already over and done with and ive gone thru 10 papers for SPM. i would do it all over again. yeah you heard me.. i would! i mean. i dont mind beinng in a secondary school again because im so accustomed to being in a school where you are taken care of that i dont know how im gonna do in the REAL world. hopefully i can survive in Australia if i get the chance to go.
ill miss all my friends though but we will see each other again next year when we get our results and for "jamuan". its hard to keep in touch because we are going our separate ways now and i hope we will still be in touch 10 yrs from now heh!
so far.. the exams were okay. im aiming for 5As. out of 10. not too bad right? its half.
im going to go to a prom this month. go for movie marathons. read books. go night clubbing. and everything else that i cant really think of right now.
oh! i hope farewell party for the sec4s will be a blast. sorry i cant be there. well i cant even if i was in singapore. but nvm. im completely over TKBand.
ill prolly start blogging frequently now. but that's it for today.
so here's a survey thing that i ripped off from izzie who did the same to someone too. =)
1. Open up the music player on your computer.
2. Set it to play your entire music collection.
3. Hit the shuffle command.
4. Tell us the title of the next twenty songs that show up (with their musicians), no matter how embarrassing. That's right, no skipping that Carpenters tune that will totally destroy your hip credibility. It's time for total musical honesty.
5. If you get the same artist twice, you may skip the second (or third, or etc.) occurances. You don't have to, but since randomness could mean you end up with a list of ten song with five artists, you can if you'd like.
1. matinee 05 - franz ferdinand
2. summer romance - incubus
3. i am the highway - audioslave
4. she's gone - steelheart
5. beverly hills - weezer
6. i wish you knew - mariah carey
7. big machine - goo goo dolls
8. back to you - john mayer
9. switch - will smith
10. summertime - beyonce
11. spiderman theme - michael buble
12. awan terpilu - ning baizura
13. son of a preacher man - aretha franklin
14. it's cool, we can still be friends - bright eyes
15. baby i'm back - baby bas feat. akon
16. if this world were mine - john legend
17. autiobiography - ashlee simpson
18. nice to meet you anyway - gavin degraw
19. california - death cab for cutie
20. california sun - the ramones
my player didnt really play my favourite songs! alah nevermind. ill prolly so this survey again then.
and a shoutout to fatz for helping with this blog! thanks again!
see you in kl! sure can lah!
- 10:03 PM