What does this mean?
Friday, December 03, 2004
yes i do.
i was having breakfast in the 7th floor today and me and mom talked abt stuff. yeah just stuff. random stuff. after that i kept bragging on how cool the ipod mini is and how it is scratch proof! which is good for clumsy ol' me.
then she got tired of it and went "tell me what you really want and we'll just get that." it was in a not very happy tone and i said ill think abt whether i want a discman or mp3 player.the truth is i want an mp3 player. but i dont want someone to get something for me because they HAVE to. i want them to do it in a happy mood. and when i get it i wont feel guilty and i wont feel bad.
so if they get me the thing in an unhappy mood then i dont want it. i dont want anything then coz then it'll make me feel guilty and i dont wanna feel guilty.
i hate feeling guilty.
guilt haunts.
so whenever i look at the whatever thing im gonna get then it'll remind me of how reluctant and unhappy they were about getting me the thing. then i'll be unhappy too.
ill be using the thing a lot so ill be unhappy a lot and then ill be depressed. depressed people are weird. i dont wanna be depressed.
ahh.. so i wont say a word until i get back from Oz and ogle at my step sisters's ipod minis. a a silver one, a gold one and a green one. the green one is a personalised one.how nice. while im left gadget-les and music-les. i dont even know if there are such words.
israk.
- 8:29 AM